Distorted Cerebration

Let’s see,

In 7th-8th grade I was president of the Youth Usher Board,

By surprise I awarded some Salvation Army good will award (along with some other students) at graduation from 8th grade.

In High School I was awarded “Sportsmanship” award, and I was never an athlete,

In College, sophomore year I was president of the Black Student Union. Like years previous although we were only required to host 2 events a semester, we hosted at least 2 events per month, with week long events in April.

During that time I was the lead programmer for the Student Aide Org, which managed the labs… I helped hire future programmers.

I also went from the random student programmer to the only guy in the office which knew NT4 which was just being released. The Admins of the box deferred to me…

When my Manager left who was a Full Time employee, and I was still a student the only person who could handle the technical stuff when he left was me. The student.

I led many projects, helped many a people, and advanced not because I demanded it, but because people felt I deserved it.

I became a manager, and although it was only a two person department I still managed staff and projects.

I was a Guild Leader, a Class Leader, a Council Member and a Raid Leader in WoW in the past few years…

And after all of this and many more things that I have no time to write about….

I don’t have enough ’supervisory’ experience, to do a job that I know I would do well in, a job that many people I work with feel I would do well in, people I’ve worked in the past, if we got along or not, feel I would do well in.

It’s really a fucking kick in the teeth.

At least that’s how it feels.

Ok, so I’m stubborn. Most people know me as laid back and such, except for when it comes to my job. Then the asshole in me comes out in tsunami’s. But despite how stubborn I can be, and like to do things my way, I am not so blinded by my awesomeness that I can’t see the bigger picture. (yes that does parse correctly. I can see the bigger picture ;-P ).

So when I am fucking pissed off at this person at my job, I can do so cleanly. Without any hypocrisy. OK… so maybe I did some things at the last job that has some hyprocatic components to it. But that’s behind me now.

Anyway, this person, refuses to do things the way “the group” does it. Individuality, I’m all for it, except for when it adversely affects the way other people who are responsible for the same things you do. Especially when ANYTHING in the chain of things we are responsible for can quickly become the weakest link.

We as SysAdmins are the gatekeepers, we need to be on the same page. And for you to go off and do your own thing… giving reasons like “Oh that’s too hard for me to remember”… is going to leave holes in the gate and WE as a team are going to pay the price for the thieves in the night.

“Oh it’s just a test box” you say. So the fuck what. It is live on OUR network, it is a link, temporary or not, that can become a threat to everything that is production.

And it’s not your primary responsibility. That system you are working on is not what your skills were brought on to do. And quite frankly I worry about those supposed skills sometimes. You’ve proven me wrong here and there, but not enough to take you out of the ‘watch closely’ column.

I heard you mention that a lot of your skills are going to waste. Err… no. Those supposed skills you supposedly have that you think are going to waste were not contracted in the first place. If I hire you to drive me from point A to point B, why would you complain about not being able pilot a fighter jet? I don’t care if you think you can fly better than Maverick, I just want to get from my house to the train station.

And why did this all come up? Cause I was gonna help you figure out what was going on on your test system, but I couldn’t. Cause you couldn’t be damned to learn a password you went off and did you own thing. And me asking you to set it to the standard was me telling you how to be a sysadmin.

You sir, blow as a sysadmin.

Prove me wrong.

POSTSCRIPT:

Apology accepted…..

Captain Needa.