Power Problem
Once more I’m here trying to decipher myself, to explain to others (in the hopes, that I finally understand myself 
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It seems to me that I have a power problem. Not a struggle for power. I’m not building a fighting force of extra-ordinary magnitude. I have no technological terrors that are completely operational. We’re talking more interpersonal power.
And it’s really odd one. Would love to hear your comments on it.
You see I seem to ‘give’ power to those who I don’t know, and (just about) demand power from those I know very well. Ironic eh?
You would think it would be opposite. That when they met me they would soon learn who’s “the baddest mofo low down around this town?” (Sho’nuff). But instead my ego disappears. Completely. I become an empty shell in the shape of Funk.
I just seem to blindly obey those I don’t know. Ok, not completely. Ask for money and I don’t have it. But other than that I will seriously consider “obeying” if not just doing it.
And those that get that far of requesting things of me, have made it past the “don’t fuck with me” aka the expressionless face I usually have when near people I don’t know.
But for people I do know, I can be pushy. I can be a down right asshole sometimes. Not so much an asshole that people hate me. Instead people seem to like me. Alot. (They told me so :P). I always get invited back. But still that bossy attitude is there, with people I know.
Why does any of this matter? Well meeting women is kinda hard when you turn into souless Mr. Roboto who hasn’t uploaded the conversation software yet.
Really need to find away to meet new people and know that “I am the master” at the same time.
Sho’nuff.